Mea Culpa and Going on Hiatus
Pro did not have a great week on the blog posting front. I made a crude comment regarding the First Lady on another site, calling myself being funny. But I got slammed big time. And then I was reminded that I made an inappropriate comment toward a female blogger on a social networking site a few days earlier.
I apologized to the site owner twice. The first was filled with justifications, an email borne of muddled thinking. The second, which I should have written first, was a straight-up mea culpa I wrote the following day that I insisted be published by the site owner under my blog name.
A day later I called the female blogger in question and apologized to her and she accepted, thank God. It pains me to realize, however, that I may have killed what was a budding friendship between myself, and this lady and her husband, who have in the past invited me into their home. I’m pretty sure now they will keep me at arm’s length. Can’t say I blame them; I’d probably do the same.
Suffice to say there are certain things you shouldn’t post anywhere, much less on a site read by strong women. If you want to know details, we’ll have to discuss it privately, although I’d just as soon put the whole embarrassing episode behind me.
On a related note, I’ve found myself making snarky comments on course material during discussions in my online class. I’m sure my instructor appreciates it. (Sure, right.) And I was called out on said networking site for denigrating a whole group of media as “idiots” for mispronouncing the surname of the President’s Supreme Court nominee, Sonia Sotomayor. Again, I felt compelled to apologize.
All this had me considering abandoning blogging and otherwise playing online altogether, but instead, I’ve concluded this is a good time to put Profunksticated on hiatus for a few months until I get my head back together.
I believe the stress of working away from home, attempting to find another gig, trying to stay a step ahead of the spinning blades of the wheat thresher that is foreclosure, doing this master’s program and dealing with what I believe are some serious issues in my marriage is starting to catch up with me. And, oh, not to mention dealing with the mess (he doesn’t believe it’s a mess, obviously) my younger male sibling has created between he and his older sons.
You may think this sounds like excuse-making, but it’s the truth. I’ve got work to do on myself in terms of doing more prayer and more earnestly working the 12 steps of the recovery program. That leaves little time for blogging.
In the meantime, browse the archives. I’ll check in from time to time to see if a comment’s been left.
I’ll be back in a few months, I’m not sure exactly when. In the meantime, thanks for reading, take care and may God bless you all.
Hey, dude. Don’t be so hard on yourself. You’ll be in my thoughts. I don’t know the situation and don’t need to know it, but no apologies necessary for being who you are. We all go through spells. Backing away from the internet to focus on real life though may not be a bad idea at all.
Take care of you. I’ll miss your comments and insight though. Godspeed in your recovery of your mind, spirit, and life.
Thanks much, A. I’ll be by your place from time to time and will try to leave comments that I hope will help. You also take care.
Comment by A — May 29, 2009 @ 10:21 pm
Sounds like a good plan…working on yourself is never a bad idea…something we all should take time to do.
Thanks, Ms. Travel Diva. I hope I come out better than ever.
Comment by TravelDiva — June 2, 2009 @ 8:30 am
ohhh pro, i for one am sad, and will miss you…
but good luck with all you plan to do…and taking some time from this place, is what we need at times to soothe the soul
take care
Shazza, thanks. I will see you later.
Comment by Shazza — June 3, 2009 @ 11:09 am
i’ve had many a day when i’ve said and/or done something that i want to repeatedly slap myself for over and over again. we all have those moments, so i hope you have forgiven yourself
you have done your part by apologizing to those you have offended and i hope you have their forgiveness as well. i know how yucky those kinds of situations can be.
taking time off to just breathe and regroup sounds like an awesome plan. i wish you the best!
Thanks, Mi Hermanita! And let me know how things turn out with you!!
Comment by dragonflysoul — June 3, 2009 @ 3:42 pm